We have no idea how much her little heart must ache to see them again. What we do see though, is how hard she is trying to grow up so that she can be 10. She frequently stands on stools and shows me how big she is. This past week she also asked me to see An-An. An-An (Daniel) is a sweet little guy that was adopted from China at the same time as Li Lin was. He, along with his wonderful parents, visited us this summer after having first met on our agency's adoption trip. I think, to Li Lin, An-An represents a connection to China... they met there and she clearly remembers this. In fact, I am startled at how much she remembers of those first few days. A couple of days ago, I was changing her into her PJs and she said to me in a mixture of mandarin and english, "You gave me these in China."
Sure enough. These were the PJs she wore in China.
She just loves China! Last week while driving downtown, Li Lin she said excitedly, "Zhong guo" (China) Looking around, we all agreed it did bear a similarity to China. Downtown Toronto is a bit of a mix of condo construction, cranes, and heavy traffic. I felt bad having to tell her she was still in Canada. Next we drove to the CNE and took in a dance show by some Chinese dancers. She just loved it and clearly realized they were from China. She kept saying, "China! China!"
Yesterday I decided to do the next best thing to taking her back to China.... visit the Chinese grocery store. While getting out of the van, the smells of the store came wafting into the parking lot. She just kept breathing deeply and saying, "Ahh. Ahh"